Parenting is hard...

Well, let me start on this off by saying that I am very lucky in parenting.  My son is probably one of the best behaved little boys I have ever come across.  Of course I am biased, but everyone tells me that he is and I am so thankful for that.  I never did anything specific to make this little boy turn out the way he has.  Most days I do the best I can and hope for the best.  Sometimes I cringe because I know I made a bad choice with him.  I have a dark sense of humor and I don't always filter myself as much as I should as a mother.  And yet... this little boy has never disappointed me. 

That's why it is so hard for me to ever be in a situation that I feel like I am disappointing him...

This move, feels just like that.  I lived a life of a lot of surprises as a kid.  I never wanted to have my son in a situation where he is so blind sided.  I feel like I haven't protected him and this was a wake up call for me and my husband.  Not to let someone else dictate where we are in life.  To take control.  To be happy and creators of our future.

This weekend I took the boy to see the apartments that we were looking at.  One that we got approved for and one that we were waiting to hear back from.  He wasn't very excited to even look.  I was feeling down about it, but he is a boy that always likes to know the details... 

When we walked in the demo unit, but is the same layout as the apartment that we are approved for, he was pleasantly surprised.  That me me pleasantly suprised.

He said it was not at all what he was picturing.  My younger brother lives in an apartment that is really old and small and for some reason he was thinking that is what we would be moving to!  Looking at what would be his room, he was thrilled!  He said he felt like it was probably even bigger than his current room.  So relieved.  We went over to anther set of apartments that we were waiting to hear from.  The boy wanted to see both places so he could decide which one he would like more.

When we walked into the 2nd one, he was not getting the same good vibes as the first apartment he toured...  Needless to say we signed the dotted line on the first place to secure the apartment.  He is feeling a bit more excited now that he has had a tour and knows where we will be living.

Even through things that are not easy to deal with and are uncomfortable and scary, he still is just the best little guy!  He is so strong and understanding!  I kind of want to be like him when I grow up.